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Hi guys! I know I'm rather inactive here now but maybe somebody is still reading. Some of you I just chat with regularly outside of dA so the connection is still there <3

I am, unfortunately, very uninspired for art - drawing and cosplay both. Have been for a long time now. I even think I'm regressing in skill. I'm trying to fight it and I hope participating in the OC pageant this year, like I did last year, will help me.
I started writing short stories though. Not much written yet, but it's more than I've done in the last years altogether. I sure will share if I finish anything. Going for some slightly creepy things :)

In general I'm happier now than previously in my life. I have some wonderful people in it, cool geeky colleagues at work, rats (3 now!), slightly more confidence to do at least some things my way. But I still get bouts of unhappiness every now and then. Apart from the general Weltschmerz many of us experience, there are a few personal things that bring me down.
I've been prone to this since early puberty and I wonder if it's some chronic depression that comes and goes or if most of us feel this way but just struggle to function anyway.

Fuck, again, I'm really grateful for my friends, not letting me let go and shit. I know I can be a possessive attention ho when it comes to friendships but shhhh, let me appease my slight fear-of-friend-abandonment issues.

And how are you, guys? Are you happy? Are you inspired?
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Good to hear from you. I haven't been on here for a while. I haven't written in  six months, but mostly because of show stuff and because of puppy care!

Also, with the things I"m doing there are better platforms for me to show my work and lit has never gotten its due here on DA to begin with.

But my boys aren't leaving me alone in spite of that. Glad to hear your rats are keeping you busy. They are quite cute.
The OC paegent pictures sure had a lot of thought in them. What Diamon and Atra were wearing were full of little Easter eggs sometimes! Keep on keeping on my friend!